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Name: Jeremy
Birthday: 7/3/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: Warcraft III, Reign of Chaos & The Frozen Throne.
Computer/technology
Taking over the world, of course.
Expertise: Almost everything computer based. Got a problem just ask me. I only charge $10/hr. Unless you can coax me into less.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business
Message: message me
Member Since:
3/15/2005
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| Certain things just seem to make more sense with time and tradgedy. Case & Point: I've been "persuing" Heidi from across the hall, but I more or less got rejected with the whole "Just want to be friends" deal.
On Tuesday Heidi was having a bad day because one of her ex-bf's was found dead in Colorado off the side of the interstate in his car. She was mostly distraught, but had stuff to do so she pushed it off. Well today, his parents made the ID and it's official that it was him. She basically had a breakdown. And from her sobbing behind her locked door, I gathered from intermittent words that she still loved him and never got the opportuinity to tell him. After she had been with him, he ran from the cops in a persuit and ended up serving prison time for 2 years. 2 years ago he got out. At some point while Heidi was working at Subway, he came in and created a disturbance and she had the manager kick him out.
Now, about my first statement. She's more or less led me along on this "friendship" and even though she told me "just friends" didn't really change her behavior. My conclusion now is that she still loved him but wasn't able to move on. I think she's interested in me, but still caught on him. Its another tradgedy of her life. I realize the likelihood of me and her ever hooking up is rare to nothing. We both in ways need to come to terms with our separate "loves" and that will take time. I'm not too confident in the future at this point.
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| Isn't getting sick such a wonderful thing. I mean, who doesn't like the dehabilitating coughing, swollen throats, runny nose, etc.!? Fortunately if I get sick I only have to push through two days of classes but still, it irritates me that I've been developing this whatever for 3 weeks now and finally it now chooses to affect me. But the hour walk around midnight in 20 degree weather pry didn't help, but whatever...I'll make it through.
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| Sometimes my own body confounds me. I mean, sometimes the very same abuse makes me energetic and sometimes it makes me want to climb into bed. What type of abuse? Usually exercise, but sometime alcohol, going to bed late, partying, watching tv, talking to friends, etc. Now I know talking to friends doesn't sound like an abuse, but the reason it feels good to tell somebody about your troubles is that it transfers those troubles off you...unfortunately for the other person, its to them. I also know that you're pry thinking "bed late" is a no brainer that it always makes you tired...but really some of my most energetic days come after a very limited night of sleep.
The human body is an interesting thing, but yet we're still trying to understand it. And we're no closer to understanding emotions either.
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| Seems like everything is in poor shit. On Friday, my arm of my desk chair snapped out of the blue, and I mean snapped and started in a second spot. And then today at dodgeball I completely threw out my arm. I can barely draw it in. I believe it was my bad form...based on the fact I've never really thrown a ball, more passed it as in basketball, and that was a good while ago.
Also, I ordered something I neither have money for nor my parents will like that I spent money on. A 30GB black iPod, refurbished. Because its refurbed, the original price was $249, but I got it for $179. I contemplated it for a very long time and repeatedly told myself I didn't want one...for over a year, but this year I am listening to so much more music with so much more quiet study/downtime. It will be well spent, and it many ways I wish I didn't spend the money on such 'toys' but I figure I will get a full value out of it. And whereas some college kids go places on breaks, or perhaps skydiving, I'm spending it on an item that I will get value out of for a very long time, and perhaps even improve my moods or biking ability. Still, I doubt dear mother and father will like it.
Meanwhile I have been cosidering selling my laptop. I use it only maybe 3 hours a week, and the only time I get use out of it is transferring files to other computers, when I go home, work on other people's computers, or when I'm in a boring class. I might just leave it in c-town for the enjoyment of my mom and sister, and it would still be around if I need it to work on computers...I think that might be my best choice.
ps: finally I've posted a cohesive selection, that last one was rough.
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| It's a good thing I'm going to go home next week. My mind is so lost I can barely type. Essentially my head is spinning so bad that I can barely type. I'm worried enough about Heide, which I "think" I'm in love with...before alcohol was involved. I dialed my sister drunk dialing which is really sad and surely totally depressing to her. My head is so spinning. Claire, this is the time to see me drunk. I wasn't even this drunk on my b-day....Sorry Sean, I thought that that pleasure was yours. Sobering up would be so depressing right now. I just hope the my neighborlike Britt and Heide and my roomie Justin can forgive me from going so far. Val- please don't tell mom of this...I can only picture how dissappointing to her this would be...I blame myself as well as Heide for this but really it is me. I just hope justin, though he'll act like its nothing, can forgive me for forcing this upon him. Then again, he shouldn't use guilt trips like a women like he does on me, to pressure me into social events like this that later lead to being drunk like so...this is depresssing. Humanity trully is pathetic isn't it?
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